my frailty
August 29, 2006
i should be asleep: these three pills should’ve knocked me over.
but you know why i’m still here stringing words one after another.
it’s because i have nowhere else to write them. except here
anonymous to my former lovers and friends who have left me.
when i let myself i miss you so much. i should not have left you.
should have bit the fucking bullet. should have shut the fuck up.
shouldn’t have told you about the french girl and how we lit
new york up like a million watt lightbulb. you have both left me.
i am all too human. not that i want to be but that i am. human.
frail and prone to fall off the wagon. faithless failing falling.
shouldn’t have ever met and loved you on sight five years ago.
should have turned the fuck away. should have left you then.
